The point of this ramble is that when I was in my late teens/early twenties I was hitting the pubs and clubs and almost everyone I knew was, or claimed to be, a writer. I found an actual poet and we used to huddle in pubs reading our latest works to each other and casting lustful glances at any girls in the vicinity. I never saw any of the other 'writer's' work, it was always in preparation. I came to realise that though these people could pontificate on any and every aspect of the art of writing as a theoretical exercise, what they wanted was the perceived cachet of being a tormented writer without the somewhat stolid and unromantic activity of sitting at a desk for hours at a time while nuclear explosions go off in the imagination and then trying to confine that to the blankly unrelenting page.
I came to realise then, that any productive writer even if they are producing rhyming couplets to their poodle, is worth so much more than the phoney writers who've read everything by the oulipo group and can post-modernly do a wicked gender/transcending relativistic critique of whatever you have produced and whose wicked insights can leave you gasping as you are crucified on the poisoned barbs of their wit. These guardians of the literary heart, will leave you feeling like a drooling idiot for daring to offer your poetic baubles for their distinguished attention. You realise as you stare into the narcissistic depths of their peepers that you are in fact, no writer at all. What you are is a scumbag, a running sore, a leprous pretender ringing your little bell in the darkness of your own pustulent ignorance.
Whoah! Where did all that come from? This is straight from my Id-quill, spilling over the page in poolings of naked truth. Please continue!
2.50pm: The poet lumbers away from his desk of dreams and stumbles downstairs to find some coffee. (To be continued...)
5.35pm: Children fed he shuffles back to the desk of dreams trailing his sisyphean mortal coil behind him and commences: What is Poetry? Ah that is the question. Once he responded 'let me go away and think about it'. Returning aeons later he said with all seriousness-'If the World is a tree then Poetry is the wind in it's branches.' Minutes passed....then:
'Why wind? Why not the seed-ripening sun? Or the all-encompassing rain? Why not just the weather?'
'The weather!' he bleated weakly, 'you can't say that Poetry is the Weather!'
'Why not?' Minutes drip from the branches of the World Tree...phut...phut...phut. A poetic wind softly rustles it's greens.
'Because, because, because it's just not right, damn your eyes! And another thing, if you barbarically plough my metaphorical allusions you will expose my poetic roots to the harsh winter frosts. You will destroy my crop, my potatoes will blight and my carrots will bolt.'
'Well then,' replies the torturer 'so what is Poetry?'
Below is the link for Keillor's slightly dead-pan reading of Bukowsk's 'Gas'. I'm reading Bukowski's Collected Poems at the moment and loving their ferocity and dark power-The Pleasures of the Damned Poems 1951-1993 (Canongate 2007). I don't know why 'Gas' isn't in it because it's great and always makes me smile.
Thanks for reading. Success to your work. Love and Will in Balance.
by Charles Bukowski
my grandmother had a serious gas
we only saw her on Sunday.
she'd sit down to dinner
and she'd have gas.
she was very heavy,
80 years old.
wore this large glass brooch,
that's what you noticed most
in addition to the gas.
she'd let it go just as food was being served.
she'd let it go loud in bursts
spaced about a minute apart.
she'd let it go
4 or 5 times
as we reached for the potatoes
poured the gravy
cut into the meat.
nobody ever said anything;
I was 6 years old.
only my grandmother spoke.
after 4 or 5 blasts
she would say in an offhand way,
"I will bury you all!"
I didn't much like that:
then saying that.
it happened every Sunday.
she was my father's mother.
every Sunday it was death and gas
and mashed potatoes and gravy
and that big glass brooch.
those Sunday dinners would
always end with apple pie and
and a big argument
about something or other,
my grandmother finally running out the door
and taking the red train back to
the place stinking for an hour
and my father walking about
fanning a newspaper in the air and
saying, "it's all that damned sauerkraut
"Gas" by Charles Bukowski, from The Flash of Lightning Behind the Mountain. © Harper Collins, 2004. Reprinted with permission.
Davy on the other hand has been coy about his future but has indicated he may not even form a new band and may instead spend time with his family discovering his musical roots though he is rumoured to be imminently releasing a highly dubbed version of 'What's it all about Alfie?'
Some prominent music critics have described the brothers highly selective childhood experience as meaning they have no idea of what it actually means to be a normal human being while others, of a crueller disposition, have suggested the brothers are not actually human at all and arrived here in pods along with other well known performers of the nineties and noughties. It is not known where the originating planet was but it is attested by several sources that the Mothership was simply called 'N-E-W-L-A-B-O-U-R'.
Professor Bumpn'dink of the University of Hollywood has suggested that the brothers strangely fixed facial expressions are clear evidence of aliens simply trying to copy genuine human emotions.
'Only a feckin' eedjit would believe a feckin' word to come out of their alien orifices!' The professor said.
Others have pointed out that the boy's father was the famous Ralph Miliband who was a sociologist. The conclusion is that if your dad is a sociologist you must know...lots of things.
Heart of Balance wishes both Ed and Davy all success in their latest scramble for power...er...we mean...career move.
We all get a little down sometimes! A poem to read down the phone to the samaritans in the wee smalll hours and dedicated to those amazing people who work for them.
Some few miles north of Boscastle,
a hamlet nestles in a crack
of cliff that rolls down to the sea.
We travelled there to try the surf,
and look around the rocky shore,
and eat some scones with clotted cream.
Some specks of rain began to fall
and angry clouds came rolling in:
The surfers dashed as lightning flashed.
We huddled in the small cafe
as raindrops became golf-ball sized,
and torrents dropped from angry skies.
The beck that chuckled like a child
now grew a matted mane, and claws,
and without pause, began to roar.
We scuttled to the white-washed pub
that perches just above the beach
while raindrops turned to tennis balls.
We ordered pub lunches and pints
and settled down to stuff ourselves
when Jack said, 'Dad! Come look at this!'
Water sluiced the car park floor
and flowed around the parked up cars.
Jack and I rushed out the door
to move our car to higher ground
with one eye on the frowning clouds
then ran back, soaking, to the pub.
Now all watched the waters grow.
Raging water from above:
Foaming water from below.
The beck spat out and the sea sucked in,
working like nefarious twins.
Then, all sound seemed to subside.
An eerie silence fell about.
A sepulchral skewer clamped
a gag in the tongue-tied clout.
Then, like a bomb the silence cracked.
A horde of banshees screaming out
our doom to split the sky in half.
The heavy rain had just been tears
from the roused and raging dragon's eyes
but now with boom, and bang, and blast,
the dark dragon herself appears-
bolts out of the beck and bends
the sky with whirling water-wings!
The hissing rain still pocks the sand
and lightning stirs the churning swirl.
The water stomps in giant's boots!
The beck's banks break apart like glass;
smashed and pounded and then ground
beneath the raging of it's flow.
The hustling trickle's now a torrent
and we feel we might be doomed.
Just then, all the children start to scream.
Men holler like loons to order.
The women's eyes are filled with tears.
Two lifeguards fret and scream for calm.
Platoons of men are window-pressed
and watch a fridge go floating by.
A tree, turning in the tide
waves feathery leaves as if
to say 'goodbye, farewell-I'm gone'
followed by strings of spinning cars.
Beside them sits an ancient pair
quietly eating pie and chips,
frowning at the fearful din.
I ask the barman-'Shall we move
upstairs and wait until the flood subsides?'
He says: 'The rooms are occupied!'
Flowing round the old white pub
go the brown sinewy arms,
like fingers rouns a pure white throat.
Any moment now I think
this pub will float right out to sea.
This monument to drink will sink
with all her screaming fearful crew.
The choice seems clear; stay here and drown
or take the road to higher ground.
Let's go! We wade out to the car
and soaking wet, we all pile in.
Thank God the engine starts first time.
The pedal-pressed leg shakes
but we judder up the hill
and leave the others to their fate.
Then...Damn it! Damn! Damn! Damn!
My moleskine notebook's in the pub
full of poems not yet grown.
Ben jumps out and rushes back
and while he's gone the seconds drag:
A son is poor exchange for some
mere book but in a flash he's back
and up the hill we steeply strain,
water washing to the rims.
The honda coughs and groans against
the push of that great flowing tongue
that so nearly licked us out.
We crest the ridge like freedom's song
Yes! We're saved! We'll live! We'll live!
Then sorrow for our shipmates down below.
We park besides malevolent floods
and rush into another handy pub.
The feverish light of the nearly-dead
dangles guttering lanterns in
our wild and widening eyes
as we wail our salty tale
to startled diners and a clutch
of locals brooding by the bar.
A sullen landlord scowls for free.
'There's talk of bodies at Boscastle!'
A news-hack from the local rag
picks about the place for scraps:
Like some strutting raven on
a field of silent slain-
Against a white backdrop-a stain!
'Crackington-where? No! No!
It's Boscastle that's in the news.
Not What-haven! Where?'
Just a place we thought we'd met
our end, that's all. That's it, no more.
A hamlet nestling in a crack of cliff.
We visited to try the surf
and look around the rocky shore,
and eat some scones with clotted cream.
THE VILEST LIE
The vilest lie has wormed its wicked way
into the very heart of me and mine,
and nests there breeding poison in my veins.
My high, thick walls and ramparts fell apart as
in the demon stormed and ate me tea.
I do wish we could trap the bloody thing,
confine it in some stinking foetid hole
to meditate upon it’s ruthless crimes.
Will we wait here for redeeming signs?
Some indication of a deeply-felt regret?
I say we let it rot here by the shore!
The waves can wash away it’s many sins!
For it has plagued me with the foulest dream:
That life is just a dream, and nothing more.
Fwd: GEORGE MONBIOT TELLS IT LIKE IT IS AND IT'S NOT GOOD. Why the climate talks in December are doomed to failure.
From George Monbiot's blog:
THE DOUGANS' TRIUMPHANTLY RETURN TO THE UK! LAURELS SCATTERED BENEATH THEIR TYRES BY A GRATEFUL POPULATION!
So here we are, back in the UK after three years in Guernsey setting up court advisory services for children and families. It was a fascinating project and I’m now taking a break before embarking on a new challenge probably in the private care sector. And to top it all we're back just in time for the recession to start biting and the city streets to erupt into protest and revolution. Marvellous, but then again was it not always thus?
Getting an entire household back from one country to another including children, the gerbil Mr Nibbles, and all possessions is quite an endeavour and an organisational task of immense proportions so my wife Millie and I are still in recovery mode as are the children. But they were all brilliant. I can blog a bit now and start to catch up on lots of stuff that’s been happening. Life in the Channel Islands has inspired me to begin writing a fairly lengthy poem called ‘A Theory of Islands’ and I’ll be posting bits on that as it develops. Essentially the concepts of flotsam and jetsam and the random way in which lives are cast up on distant shores serves as prime theme and then there is something of the inwardness of islands and the inevitable predatory reaction to ‘passing trade’. I began to think of smuggling and ship-wrecking and piracy not only as illegal survival activity but as a philosophical mindset determined by location, in this case the proximity of the sea-a kind of smuggle-osophy. And then there is the sea herself with all her mystery and pitiless wildness. To live within the ambit of such a wild force must inevitably impact on one’s growth and nature, on one’s perceptions and values. Anyway that’s my theory of islands stuff. It’s great being back in the UK and I’m aware how I relish just the great diversity of cultures and peoples. Even the complexities of weather are appealing-though I’m not sure how long that will last. I’m going to start posting some video on the blog over the coming weeks including some of my songs, some interpretations and some of my poems performed for the blog. When I get settled in the Brighton area I’ll be doing some gigs and readings and will post those dates here. It’s looking like I’ll be working in London which was part of my plan so I’m looking forward to that and just enjoying being unemployed for a wee while. Thanks for reading-Success to your work!
2 tablespoons butter
2 x 400g tins of chopped tomatoes
285ml/1/2 pint stock or water
1.5kg/3 1/2lb leg of lamb, diced
1 handful of chopped mint and coriander
285ml/1/2 pint natural yoghurt
salt and freshly ground black pepper
lime juice to taste
Hot and Fragrant Rub Mix -
2 tablespoons fennel seeds
2 tablespoons cumin seeds
2 tablespoons coriander seeds
1/2 tablespoon fenugreek seeds
1/2 tablespoon black peppercorns
1/2 a cinnamon stick
2 cardamom pods
salt and freshly ground black pepper
Curry Paste Ingredients -
5cm/2 inches fresh ginger, peeled
2 tennis-ball-sized red onions, peeled
10 cloves of garlic, peeled
2 fresh chillies, with seeds
1 bunch of fresh coriander
Preheat your oven to 170C/325F/Gas 3.
Lightly toast the fragrant rub mix in the oven or under the grill. Chop the curry paste ingredients roughly, add the rub mix and puree in a food processor.
In a large casserole pan, fry the curry paste mixture in the butter until it goes golden, stirring regularly. Add the tomatoes and the stock or water. Bring to the boil, cover with kitchen foil and place in the oven for one and a half hours to intensify the flavour. Remove the foil and continue to simmer on the stove until it thickens. This is your basic curry sauce.
Fry the lamb in a little olive oil until golden, then add to the curry sauce and simmer for around 1 hour or until tender.
Sprinkle with chopped coriander and mint and stir in the yoghurt. Season to taste and add a good squeeze of lime juice. Serve with spiced breads, steamed basmati rice and lots and lots of cold beer.
From: Bill McKibben - 350.org <firstname.lastname@example.org>
Date: 10 September 2010 21:02
Subject: Just left a meeting with the White House...
The White House refused to accept our offer of a free solar panel installation on 10/10/10. PS: This week was a big week for our online growth too -- we're super close to 100,00 supporters on Facebook. Push us over the edge: Click here to invite your facebook friends to join you.
That's why we need to lead by example, and show our leaders how work gets done.
I just walked out of a disappointing meeting with the White House: they refused to accept the Carter solar panel we came to Washington to deliver and said that they would continue their "deliberative process" to discuss putting solar panels back on the White House roof.
Well, we're done deliberating. When Pakistan is under water, Russia is on fire, and millions of people are ready for clean energy jobs, it's not time to deliberate: it's time to get to work.
Today marks the one month countdown to the 10/10/10 Global Work Party. Will you help us celebrate by signing up to register or attend an event today?
We entered this morning's meeting buoyed by the over 40,000 of you who signed our letter requesting President Obama to make the retrofit. We were equally heartened by the hundreds of work parties that have been registered since our road trip began on Tuesday. And we were humbled by reports of the amazing work being planned in places like Zimbabwe, where a group of students will be installing solar panels on the roof of a rural hospital for 10/10/10.
I'm also incredibly proud of the three students from Unity College who stood right up to the officials we met with and explained to them that if they wanted to communicate about the greening of the government they should do something in a place where people pay attention.
This week's road trip got incredible media coverage in places like Newsweek, the Washington Post, USA Today, and more. Thousands of you helped spread the word on Facebook and Twitter. Hundreds of you signed up new work parties to show how you're leading this movement for climate solutions. Because in the end, that's what it is going to take: a movement.
Your efforts are building incredible momentum. In the last month, big partners like Greenpeace, Rainforest Action Network, Sierra Club, and the World Council of Churches have joined the 10:10 Campaign and 350.org in planning for 10/10/10. The day will be a moment to bring our entire movement together and show our so-called leaders what real leadership looks like.
As for the Carter solar panel, it's going to stay in Washington for now, ready for President Obama to come take it home. And as for me, I'm going to head home myself for a few days of rest before hitting the road again to drum up support for 10/10/10.
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